I can’t even begin to describe how much of a love/hate relationship I have with my University. There are so many pros and cons that I toss back and forth for why I either enjoy it here or despise it here. 

I figure that’s how it’s going to be wherever I am, but I always get stuck on whether or not Armstrong is going to be the best thing for me in the long run. People say it doesn’t matter where you go, as long as you have a degree. But I can’t stand getting the blank stares from people when I tell them where I go. It’s very frustrating at times going to a no name college.

Plus, if I end up competing for a job against a person who graduated from UGA, i’m pretty sure the dawg is going to get hired …….  unless the employer is an Alumn from Florida or Alabama.

where I feel unmotivated and I don’t want to be around many people.

I just really need to make this day go by faster, so that way I can get on the road for tomorrow faster. I’m in some dire need of me&him time because Savannah is slowly turning into a city I rather not be in. Simply for the fact that I’m so far away from the only two people who seem to truly care and be concerned.

every one else can kind of just disperse (isn’t that what they all do in the end anyways?)

I would love if the whole group could get together. It’s been so long since everyone has been in one place at the same time. That would be nice ….. but maybe that would be more realistic for Winter Break. 

I always want to know things, but I don’t want them to be bad. However, a majority of the time its things I don’t want to hear ……. but I would rather know the whole thing then let my mind think up things that are even worse.

who will scream it from the top of her lungs.
who will have to tell anyone in sight.
who will put everything out there.
 
but trust me when I say it does not mean I don’t feel the same way that all those girls who do that feel …… & I’m sure I have so much more meaning behind it than those other girls because of everything that has happened up to now.

I definitely let my emotions get the better of me, but that’s okay right? all I know is that I’m still waiting for it all to be solidified. Until then I don’t think it will feel real to me. 

why is it I’m always in the complicated situation? Now that I know what I know, it makes me want things so much more …… I feel like it shouldn’t be this complicated.

that I can’t post pictures or that I’m not able to be more open about what you mean to me to others, because someone else’s feelings might get hurt in the process. I’m not going to sit here and lie and say I don’t feel like I’m still being strung along slightly. You always make fun of me for being indecisive yet here we are and you have still have not made a decision on which way you are going to go. You say and do all the right things, but I still have a fear, a slight hesitation, that in the end I’m the one who is going to be hurt.

I want what she is getting. & I’m mad that she is getting it, but not appreciating it. To just shake her & to tell her to open her eyes & to open her heart to him! ….. but girls will be girls.

I still don’t understand the hesitation. You say all these things … you do all these things, yet here we are still at square one. I hate that in almost every situation I am the one who has to sit around and wait for others to make their decision. Story of my life.

I went to a comedy show on campus tonight & the dude there was hilarious! I was also very proud of myself that I got all of his jokes (dirty & clean) c: , but one of the jokes that stuck out to me the most was when he said the “Woohoo” is like the bat signal for sluts! 

to any of my followers who have not participated in Zumba: DOOO ITTT !! it’s so much fun & you get to shake your booty! I loved going with my sisters tonight (especially when they played Shots)  :D 

when I was talking to her it made me realize how stupid you’re being & how much I wish you could drop the past and move forward. I’ll never say that to you though, because unlike some people I would rather see you happy then bring you down. I just don’t know how I would take it if in the end things change and you move on in a way I hadn’t planned.